Today started off with some Udi’s gluten free cinnamon bread with Smart Balance chunky peanut butter and polaner raspberry jelly.
After shoveling my yummy breakfast down the gullet, I went to a spin class. The instructor blasted the music which consequently resulted in many people leaving. I powered through. 🙉
I wanted to share something important in my life. I have struggled with weight loss and feeling well and have finally come to a place where I know what works for my body.
For the first time in my adult life I finally feel at home in my body. For so long I felt like a stranger in my own skin. The person I saw in the mirror looking back was not familiar. The person who I am inside mentally and spiritually did not match the person I was on the outside. Not just physically in how I looked, but how I felt. Even after I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism in my early 20’s and began medication, I still felt like an alien in my skin. Most of the time I felt hungry, exhausted, depressed, angry, frustrated…the list can go on. I was 20 lbs overweight and considered ‘morbidly obese’ for my height/weight range as I am 5’3. A term that was hard to hear and cope with. It wasn’t until I figured out what works for me that I began to lose the weight and feel at home in my own skin.
This process of figuring out what works for me did not happen overnight. It took years and years of searching and experimenting. I began to read different blogs to see what other people’s diet and exercise routine looked like.
I tried all different workout routines and classes from bootcamp, Orange Theory, spinning, weight lifting, exercise DVDs. I’ve tried all different diets and fads from trying to become vegan to carb cycling, some diets from actual programs and ones I made up on my own. I tried to meal prep and made big batches of food for the week thinking that this would help me lose weight and feel better while making life a little bit easier if I prepped ahead. What I didn’t realize is that I was poisoning myself.
I experienced my first episode of vertigo in early 2015. I went to a doctor who thought my crystals in my ears were out of whack. She was wrong.
When I experienced my second incident with vertigo I found an amazing ENT/allergist who is a true diagnostician, something we unfortunately do not see much of these days. Most doctors try to prescribe you with meds and send you on your way. It wasn’t until I met this doctor who really dug deeper than others before. She decided to do allergy testing on me. My tests revealed that I had moderate-severe allergies to most of the foods I was ingesting everyday. By eating the same foods most of the time I did not allow my body to rid itself of the toxins in each of those foods. She put me on an elimination diet for a month. At first it was difficult as I am a creature of habit and missed the foods I was eating everyday. But after a week, it was an afterthought.
Since finding out that I have food allergies (that I likely gave most of them to myself as I did not give my body a break from those foods) I have also continued going to acupuncture. Acupuncture helps the internal flow of you body.
I found the right supplements for the nutrients that I lack. I figured out a good workout plan where I don’t have to kill myself at the gym. I am a true believer of mixing it up. Just like the food, it is important for me to always change up my workout routine, whether it’s walking outdoors, taking a spin class or completing a full body toning DVD.
And lastly, mind over matter. When I finally became mentally exhausted from constantly thinking about how I looked and felt, I decided to STOP. Stop obsessing about the calories I consumed, stop worrying if I spent enough time on the elliptical, just stop overthinking this whole part of my world and free myself of this mental prison of worry I kept myself in. Don’t get me wrong, I still think about these things here and here; however, I do not let it consume my thoughts. I eat well 80% of the time and I keep active as much as I can in a given week. Some days or weeks I don’t feel like doing anything. But, then I remind myself of how good I feel after I treat my body well and give it the nutrients, exercise and rest it needs to function happily.
I finally found balance! And what works!!! I hope you do too 🙂
What diet and fitness tips work for you?
Off to pick up our wedding bands! Adam and I wish we could wear them now.
Cheers! xxJ 💗